(i promise i am not naked in this picture, the sunlight is just too bright!)

Hello you lovely bunch.

Yesterday evening I uploaded my very first video on YouTube- a cover version of Can't help falling in love by Elvis Presley (or Twenty One Pilots, they made a famous cover of it which went viral) on my ukulele.

I bought this ukulele about two months ago.

my twitter is @paulacharlottes *cough* *cough*

During that time I was on holiday for three weeks, I had to take my exams, I met friends, made some trips and basically did not practice everyday or regularly at all. Long story short: I am not the best at playing the ukulele. Bare this in mind if you are interested in watching the video.
Can't help falling in love was one of the first songs I learned to play and I was very proud when I got it completely right in one go.
After watching many Youtubers (like Dodie for example) having a channel contributed to music and playing different instruments, I was like "I can play some instruments, I love music, I enjoy making music- why shouldn't I try it out?"

Well, simply because I was afraid of friends and family to find out. That they would laugh at me, make jokes, destroy it for me. I still am, to be honest. They don't even know about this blog, so a YouTube Channel seemed way more scary.

What made me do it anyway?
The pure passion for music and for living my own life. I told myself that if they would find this blog, my channel or my twitter account (so many "secret" online things about me yeeeez) and make fun of it I would simply defend it. Because these things are fun to me and I enjoy writing and sharing. But if they fancy wasting their time looking at what I am doing online I won't stop them.

Still, when I actually hit the upload button my heart was racing and I was so afraid. Because after all the cover was not that good and people on the internet can be mean.
What would I do if I would get a negative comment or a bad rating?
Would it affect me?
.... well hell yes it would. 


I shared the video on my twitter and continued my day, or rather my evening, as normal as possible. I didn't check the video for ratings or comments.

When I woke up this morning however my phone sent me two notifications from the video, as two people decided to watch the video and comment underneath.



I was SO relieved you have no idea! It really made me excited to post new stuff and I really wanted to become better asap.
I felt insured in the decision I made.

I think it will take a while until I feel comfortable enough to speak, because, as you know, English is not my mother tongue and I will probably make mistakes. I just want to be able to embrace them.
So there you have it, the backstory of my first ever YouTube video. If you still fancy watching it, it is here: