Hello everybody.

This is very random. But I was just sitting here on my desk working when I looked out of the window and watched the rain running down the glass and the sun disappearing behind the horizon.
And that was the exact moment I realized I am so sick of it!

Since August is over the weather here in Germany went instant autumn meaning that it started raining and became windier even quicker than usual. At the time I was for some reason extremely excited, so it did not bother me. At the end of December (which is already over a month ago what is time?) it started snowing which had me excited as well, so again, I was happy.
But now it is February and I can physically feel how the dark seasons dragged me down.

Unfortunately I suffer from winter-depression, so there had been worse days than others where I did not eat and got out of bed, just kind of existed and complained about my life. Of course there are days where the darkness and cold doesn't affect me at all, but looking back I feel like there had been only a few this year.
I actively made me feel bad by listening to "sad" music, watching "sad" films and not meeting my friends as often as I could've.

I crave summer!
I want to go outside in a t-shirt and feel the sunbeams on my skin.
I want to drink cold drinks outside because it is unbearably hot outside.
I want to hang out with friends and go to the open air bath.
I want to make campfires.
I want to go to the beach again. Seriously I miss the sea so much.
I want to travel again and get tanned.
I want to work outside.
I want to eat ice cream with friends on a marketplace.
I want to look in a bright blue sky with a few lonely fluffy clouds.
I want to wake up when the sun already rose.

I am sick of the cold, the darkness and the rain.

So I have been looking at photos of me in shorts on holiday, videos on YouTube of people enjoying the first days of spring and listened to my Summer playlist on Spotify. It did not necessarily made me feel better but I felt understood and could close my eyes and imagine being in Italy again.

Seriously guys, do you understand my mood? Do you miss the sun or specifically summer as much as I do? Or are you more of a winter person? 

Please feel free to leave your opinion in the comment section.

Love, Paula Charlotte ❀
(PS: I don't know if you noticed but yesterday in the evening I did some slight changes on my blog's design and layout. I am still not 100 percent pleased, but this will do for now. I am still working on it though.)